CRAP (Completely ridiculous and pathetic)
I'm missing out alot of lessons, especially important ones like physics. Teacher is teaching about kinematics and i only noe 10% of the sh_t. Reason? AYG. This idiotic competition that requires students to miss schools and flunk their exams, while the adults want them to be volunteers and make Singapore proud. Please la, dun give us so much burden can, im dying alr. Im still in the holiday mood ok, and at nite im still thinking of playing and enjoying.
Singapore is really disorganised, even simple stuff like bus services and laundry services have to take half an hour to give a reply. NOOB.
I seriously want my holidays back! Studies are so torturous! Hey dun give me pressure ok?! I dun study let u see then u noe ar!
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Sunday, June 28, 2009
Our time has come... to catch the H1N1!!
School on mon! But i only need to go 2 periods, which is PE (WOOTS!) and HCL(...)
After that, i have to meet ms toh to go to the airport for some ayg duty:( Hope i dun come home too late. I'm still in my holiday mood:D
I haven collect my ayg shirt and pass! I'm supposed to collect them in school 2 weeks ago, and i was too lazy to take-.- But it's ok.. i just might have to rush to school on mon and collect and change into the attire.
AYG duty! Best chance of getting H1N1! What if i get the H1N1 and then the class will be quarantined? What say you, huh? LOL
Ok so... have to prepare for school, and i have still bits of homework left that i was too lazy to do. Procrastinating for a week T.T o_0 ^_^ x_x -.-''
I still wan to enjoy today! Its still considered as a holiday for me. TML Nightmare! Sure a lot of breaks(if u dun get what i mean, nvm LOL)
Goodbye Holidays! Im anticipating you in November! (o sht got EAP i think x_x)
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Friday, June 26, 2009
Time faltering away...
Its the last day of the holidays! and i woke up at 11! Feeling so depressed. Why cant the govt just extend the good o holidays?! @#$%@$
Yesterday, i had an outing then i went to church. The church ended at around 11which is rather late, and i decided to take the MRT with Geng Hao even though i might not get a bus in Tampines. So, after a long wait, i took the MRT, and they said it was the last train -.- So nvm, we got onto it, and it was so crowded. We got off the train at Tanah Merah, and we waited for another train to Pasir Ris. When the train came, i was freaking shocked when i saw a few Westerners dragging a Westerner lying on the floor out of the train. I thought he was "dead" at first, but then i saw him looking around and saying something. Weird. SO, when i went to tampines interchange, 3 of my buses no more! the last buses had already took off. I was getting a bit nervous and i kept looking around to see if there were any buses. Suddenly i realised that there is another 3 other buses i can go home, only that i didn't take it be4. Just when i realised that, I saw one bus no. 18. As i ran, it went along with me. Too bad it did't stop as i stopped -.- Reached home around 12.15, and slept at 1. Woke up at 11. Miserable holidays -.-
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Tuesday, June 23, 2009
School reopen shucks
Walao the vote is 89% extend holidays, then the voting for school reopen is only 3%, then the govt decided to reopen school (wtf?)
Gotta cut my hair soon. But dunno when. Ok nvm. Tml i'll be having chinese project, then thurs i'll be going to my teacher's restaurant and also watch movies. busy week ya?
I seriously not anticipating school! I still want my freedom! School still got tests and homework! School close down pls!
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Monday, June 22, 2009
Everybody makes mistakes, thats why they put pencils on erasers...
These few days i had a lot of fun. Besides owning many ppl in Soldier Front, i had enjoyed many outings so far. Today, i went out with Benedict and Jit Wei to play soccer. Although there is only 3 of us, we had a great time. Sadly, we only played for 1 and a half hours as we were tired. Hope there are more of these outings!
Friday -> Cell group outing
Saturday -> Primary school class gathering
Sunday -> Maths project
Monday -> Soccer
Upcoming...
Tuesday -> Chinese project
Wednesday -> Eat'z 19
Thursay -> ?
Friday -> ??
More outings!
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Friday, June 19, 2009
It's been a looong time...
Homework! I've been progressively doing it, and im almost done with it XD My mood and emotions are also getting better! Holidays are gonna end (aww...) And somemore got AYG! Im gonna miss the 1st week of lessons and tests, and i will be lagging behind like siao...
I realli hope i can treasure the last week of holidays... I will play whatever i can, do finish all the homework, and most importantly, HAVE FUN!! But seriously i am not anticipating studying again :( Its tiring and boring!
Hope God will give me motivation and inspiration and desperation and A MIRACLE to study:)
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Monday, June 15, 2009
Are u waiting for a miracle?
The world is changing, for the better or for the worse, i don't know. Felt that the world is gonna end soon.
Miracle: such an effect or event manifesting or considered as a work of God...
Work of God, eh? God is controling everything. Every small details in this world is done by God. My point is, are humans really deserve to be living in Earth? We are ruining everything God has created. He made the ozone layer so thick, but we humans made it thin, and even made a hole. God gave us suitable temperatures, only for us to change it. It's like, God made the Earth round, but people wants it to be square.
If humans are clever enough to damage Earth, why are humans not clever enough to try save the Earth?
Personal stuff now. The holidays sux. I want to go out the whole day, everyday. It's a torture. I noe i have been saying this almost everytime, but God, u control everything, u confirm will read my prayers and this blog de. See my WANTS and see which one you can give me. I am already satisfied if u grant me the 1st and last one.
Grant me miracles. I love miracles. Make my life fruitful. Answer my prayers. This blog is for u, God. All my messages to You God, i will write it here. I will never walk alone, you will walk side by side with me everytime. Things will get better from today onwards.
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Saturday, June 13, 2009
You do not have to be alone...
Just back from Genting! Did almost every scary rides at the Theme Park. Took Space Shot 2 times (yes!), Euro Express(boring), Spinner, Flying Dragon 2 times, Rolling Thunder Mine Train, go-karting 2 times, Flying Coaster(woohoo!) and also played bowling and card games.
I couldn't take the Corkscrew as it was closed :( But nvm, i took the Space Shot! It was very scary at 1st, but the thrill of finally taking it overcome everything. It was quite fun actually, but mostly scary.
After this 4D3N vacation, i had to do my homework again X( Every fun things have to come to an end. I also miss my relatives, as we played one whole night of Blackjack.
So fun! After the fun part, it is time to go back to my studies...
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Monday, June 8, 2009
U gonna get that BOOM BOOM POW!
The song 'Boom Boom Pow' rox. Very catchy and very rappy -.- I will put this song in the 'ipod' soon :D
Today went to library and brought laptop there. Talked to some people on msn and did some homework XD Chem worksheet on air and A Maths test nia LOL. But still quite satisfied about what i did today. At least i did something right?
NOW YIREN HAD ALSO TRIED THE SPACE SHOT THINGY BE4!!! LOL i die die must take le, or else no point going Genting. Hope it doesn't rain there and then the Theme Park closed. I REALLY WANT TAKE!!! if i have photos of me taking the Space Shot i will post it on blog :) Lord Jesus give me courage, and take away all the fear that i have. It's supposed to be fun and exciting right, but i say until like i going war or sth -.-
Time to play PSP. Bye!
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Sunday, June 7, 2009
For the cause of Christ, I live...
LOL this title is from the song "For the Cause". Dunno why after church today then everyone listening...LOL! Actually this song quite nice... But prefer praise songs, cuz worship songs some too emo -.-
Went to church today, and there is a pastor who talked about justice today... Understand a little; about Hurricane Katrina and innocent lives, and her family story, and nothing else.LOL. Have to go church more often so can understand better.
I suddenly felt the excitement in going Genting. There is one machine in the Theme Park (forgot name) which is it will send u very high in the "sky"(Genting), and then you will drop. I was shocked when i heard that Tay Xi, had tried before, so I wanted to try too. Hope i will not feel the blues on that day XD. I really want try, but i scared. :( Hope this miracle can happen!!!
zzz i always hope for a miracle -.-
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Saturday, June 6, 2009
With hope in your heart...
A
Miracle
Is
Revolving
Around
Christon,
Liverpool, and
Everyone else!!!
:D:D
Completed Heymath Guided Worksheet!!! Took 3-4 hours to complete -.-
Going CHC tml, have to sleep early.
BB!!!
(A MIRACLE)
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When you walk through a storm, put your hands up high...
You'll Never Walk Alone is a Christian song!!! Listen to it and you'll feel refreshed!!!
I WANT MIRACLES!!! I WANT MIRACLES!!! I WANT MIRACLES!!! I WANT MIRACLES!!! I WANT MIRACLES!!!
May miracles befall on me, and washed off all my sins, and let me start afreshed.
A
Miracle
Is
Revolving
Around
Christon,
Liverpool, and
Everyone else!!!
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I asked her to say, she wouldn't listen...
I decided not to dwell too much on my troubles. Now, i realised that i had so many things to do in the holidays...
1. TONS of homework
2. Learn guitar song "Without You"
3. Learn Sword routine
4. Liable Officer for AYG
Give me a break. I dun wan my life to be ruined. I want freedom. I want the things that i want. I want my life back...
I close my eyes, and the flashback starts...
Life as a primary school student is so good. Even life as a Sec 1 and 2 is not bad at all, as compared to now. I noe that going to JC and NS and Uni is worse, but i can't take it already. I can't catch up with the modern life's pace.
Ok enough abt sinning stuff. The song "Without You" is nice. My teacher teached me until the intro nia. The chorus is lyk so difficult, all i could see is hundreds of bean sprouts there -.-
Then the Sword routine. On Friday, my coach wanted me to learn finish the Sword routine on that day, which is impossible. Everytime i learned more, I forgot the 1st few parts, then tio scolding -.- I simply can't concentrate. So, I hope i can do no. 2 and 3 without anybody's help, and let others see me in a different perspective. I want to be myself again. Hope school reopens soon...
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Friday, June 5, 2009
Sun lighted half of the Earth, but God shone light on everywhere...
I dun wanna succumb to fate, I wanna live my life the way i want. Stop putting obstacles around me anymore, I can't take it. I CANT TAKE IT!
Why must life be so miserable? Why must lives of other people continue with nothing in their mind that bothers them? Why must buildings like IR still constructing when we do not know when the world will end? Why they do not have this kind of mindset? Envy is a sin. Even despair is a sin. What do u want me to do now? Smile when life as a human sux??!! Why can't i be an animal that has a shorter life than humans, so that i will not be living in a miasma of worries, grievances, illnesses and death?
Maybe the holidays caused me to be like this, cuz im so lonely. And hello, this is only the 5th day of the holidays? I now seriously wish that I have my whole holidays packed with exciting and anticipating activities, rather than to stay at home and only to face the computer screen and questions on papers.
Hope someone can heal me from this misery. This is torturous!! Can a cheerful person here tell me what to do? Oh right, this is a personal blog. I voiced out my troubles to almost no one, in fact. Living as a human is considered lucky, but what's the point of being so lucky when our brains are so clever, when we can predict the future, and our brains can develop a feeling called sadness? This sux. God, i wanna be tall, but how long have i been praying to you about this every night?! I noe that some prayers cannot be answered, but just this once? I am hoping for a miracle again, and again, and again already, and this is tiring.
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Thursday, June 4, 2009
Asian Youth Games
Today was a total bore. Went for the AYG training, and went to alot of places. The briefing sux, but going to the games venue is still ok. I am 'in-charge' of sailing, basketball and beach volleyball, so I went to National Sailing Centre, Anglican High and SENTOSA(!!!) Siloso Beach respectively.
Then walao my friend Ser Kai went to Jalan Besar Stadium leh! I want go...
In case what you wondering whats all this AYG training is all about, is like we are the Liable Officers(LO) for this AYG, and we have to take care for the foreign athletes coming to Singapore. Our school is in charge of Saudi Arabia(cool!), and we have to learn a bit of Arab to communicate with some of them who dunno how speak English.
So today we went to the Games Venue to know how to escort the athletes to places. And have to know alot of stuff!!! But one thing happy is that my NOC LO (teacher) is Ms Toh, and not some other teacher that i dunno. I was considered quite tyco as Ser Kai is with Ms Nur, and Jing Yi is with some Primary School teacher. LOL!
The only thing im anticipating is to see the athletes competing in this AYG. Cuz besides that still have to go Swissotel which is the Games Village, to do some work. Everyone all wish can go there stay one noght lor.
Bye!
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Wednesday, June 3, 2009
If it's a girl, Laila has already named her...
This title is taken from the ending of the book A Thousand Splendid Suns. This ending wants you to ponder wad Laila has named her. For those who had read the book, it is obviously Mariam.
The storyline is very tragic once more. Firstly, Mariam's mother, Nana, died. Next, Giti died. Soon after, Laila's parents die. Mullah Faizullah died of old age, and Jalil died of illness. Then, Rasheed die (thats good). Then, Mariam was executed due to the killing of Rasheed.
U see, 8 people died, while other stories only one or two died, or even none at all. This author is so sadistic. Wants to make people get touched by this book and cry.
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Today got CCA. Boring la. Actually Jing Yi invited me to come to his house and play, but i rejected. I wanted to stay at home lol.
My muscles still aching from Monday's exercise -.- And now i had more blisters inflicted from CCA. Hope i can recover soon and continue exercising. I WANT GROW TALL!
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Tuesday, June 2, 2009
We were both young when i 1st saw you...
I just realised how little friends i had... PATHETIC. Besides friends from school, i have no more. I dun even talk to my neighbours. For 10 years!!! zzz. i oso grew up with my neighbours(2 gals) I even saw the mother got pregnant and eventually gave birth to a 2nd child -.- And till now, I didn't talked to them at all. Only sometimes, the parents asked me how was school all this all tat occasionally, and nothing else. PATHETIC. Just see my 'WANTS'
I oso realised that i am very shy when talking to gals. The only comfortable gals that i can talk to is Cynthia, Winifred, Cherie, Hui Yi and Kristine(abit) HEY MUST MORE BRAVE!!! Is not that i got affection for the gals that im shy with, but is just when they talked to me, i got stunned. I didn't look at them in the eye when i answered sometimes. XP
Ok so, make more friends and communicate with gals better. Lastly, improve my friendship that already existed. Some are drifting apart, while some maintained. Got see the previous post? That one goner liao i think. HOPE FOR A MIRACLE. hope wad sia lyk how long le -.- But, im still hoping. Even if i hope till ripe old age i will still continue hoping.
1. MAKE MORE FRIENDS!!!
2. BETTER COMMUNICATION WITH GALS!!!
3. IMPROVE FRIENDSHIP WITH OTHERS!!!
hope i can post more but my brain stuck now. Bye!
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Stranger - Friend - Best Friend - Friend - Stranger
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Jan 2007
A boy all alone in a new school, my form teacher asked us to seat randomly after the orientation. I was afraid that everyone had their own friends, and that's when i realise an empty seat beside a person. His name is Keith. Behind me, was Vernon and Yiren.
We soon became friends. We talked about which primary school we came from, and once played some lucky draw game about which CCA should we go.
One day, teacher wanted to appoint the chairman of the class. Keith sabo-ed me and called out my name. Luckily and unluckily, my form teacher heard my name, and he wrote in down on the whiteboard.
He then asked, "Who wants to vote for Christon?"
I turned around and surveyed. Almost half the class rose up the hands. I was deeply in shock and was also elated that so many people in my class supported me. As I looked behind, He also raised up his hand. I smiled.
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"What team you support ar?" He asked me.
I said proudly to Him."Liverpool. You?"
I was hoping he was supporting the same club as me, but just then he said, "The team that won Liverpool twice this season."
I thought for a second, and replied, "Arsenal?"
He nodded.
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May 2007
Got a haircut again. This time, it was worse than the previous one. It was like a mushroom head, and Yi Ren said that the barber used a bowl to cut around it.
In class, I was standing in the front, managing the class in the classroom. He shouted, "Ee, ur hair sucks!"
I told him, "I know..." That was when some students in the class were looking at me, giggling. I felt so embarrassed.
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June 2007
Went to His house for the 1st time to do IPW project. I marvelled his house. He had a PS2, XBOX, PSP, a labtop, a mini freezer in his room, and soft soccer balls. HIs house were full of distractions, and obviously we cannot do finish the project on that day. We went on a 2nd time the following week.
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November 2007
Had a class chalet near Downtown East. I persuaded my mom to let me stay at the chalet for the 2 nights with much difficulty, as He was staying for 2 nights too. We had much fun there, and we went to the arcade, rode on bicycles, and played soccer.
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29 Feb 2007
Was the worst day in school in my life. He got chosen, and I was not. I was sad, but His face showed that he was over the moon. I decided not to mention about it for a week, but my other friends kept bugging me. They said, " Wa, He got chosen, then why u not chosen? You were the chairman last year leh."
I shrugged, and decided not to answer them. I knew this was a question that had no answers. There might be, but it was not up to me to answer this question.
He and Keith had to go for some training. I was sad that I could not be with them, and really envied them. I blamed myself for being so useless. I had to face the fact that I was not chosen all by myself.
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He hardly talked to me since that day. Was it my incompetence that drifted us apart?
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May 2008
There was a raft competition, and He took part. I took part too, and we were the leaders of 2 groups. We decided that the 2 groups should work together. We used wooden logs and ropes to make the raft. It was boring at 1st, but it was the tying of ropes that attracted me. He knew how to tie the ropes, and he taught me. WIthin a few tries, I did it, and I was so happy. He was a pro, I thought. Then, he suddenly had to go to do his duties. He could not teach the rest, and he asked me to teach the others. I shrugged. Duties again. Always the duties that caused our friendship to drift apart.
Little did I know that this was just the beggining.
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June 2008
He seldom talked to me now. He used to call me at night when he needed help in his studies, and I always helped him, without fail. Besides meeting up to play soccer, there were no other times where we talked to each other. Just then I realised I was replaced by a person as His best friend. That person always talked to him during soccer outings. He was the one that was the busy man picking up phone calls to help Him with his homework. Now then i understand. Someone was talking behind my back. Nasty stuff about me...
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October 2008
I was the studying and partially soccer type. Well, he was the opposite, and exam results were reflecting onto ourselves. We had to go to different streams next year. His best friend would be in the same class as him now. Soon, our frindship soured.
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November 2008
Went to Hong Kong for a Sports Exchange Programme. One of the days, we went to Disneyland. I still regarded Him as my best friend, and I decided to buy a gift for him. I went to a shop to buy a mug, with his name and a Mickey Mouse playing soccer carved on it. It was the best souvenir that I can think of, to buy for my special friend.
After I came back from Hong Kong, I gave it to him. He said, "Thanks", and that is all He had said. Our friendship did not turn for the better. It still remained the same.
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May 2009
Exams are over. My weeks of studying my three sciences had come to an end, while His studying of his two sciences had end, too. He organised to play futsal to celebrate his birthday. He didn't tell me what is the main reason for organising this outing, but I already knew. As his past best friend, I had to know that it was his birthday.
On that day, I did not give any presents to him. It was our "tradition". Our friendship still remained the same on that day. In fact, there was nothing to say about friendship anymore. It was over.
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Amir-- Him Hassan-- Me Kite-running competition--29 Feb 2008
Must our friendship become like Amir's and Hassan's? All i hope now, is that He still regards me as a friend. That's all i can hope for. HOPE FOR A MIRACLE.
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Monday, June 1, 2009
It's not over tonight...
This afternoon very fruitful... i did 100 push ups (abnormal type) and 1000 jumps!!! SHIOK. in the evening i oso went for a 2km walk XD
I hope i realli can grow tall!!! and oso wan have biceps cuz i wan do pull-ups. My pull-ups dam pathetic seriously... Can't even do 1 leh... This June Holidays must JY!!
Btw, i seem like i am writing to let other ppl see right? (i wun get a reply) Ya lor. I actually wan make this as my personal blog, letting just some ppl see only. So, next time i will write more personal stuff, but i will still update on my daily activities to no one but the internet -.-
In case nobody realises where the music comes from, i came from the ' iPod nano' below -.- Tell who sia. I put there so that i can listen and at the same time put some more stuff in there so dun make it so plain
Bye!
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A Thousand Splendid Suns
I have decided to follow Geng Hao to write a unique title for every post. I had edited my previous posts to put a title there liao. This post, well, the title is A Thousand Splendid Suns.
Why chose this title leh? Well, cause right now i am reading this book called A Thousand Splendid Suns! (-.-) I think i like this book very much, cause this book can make my cry and make me emo -.- It's true. I read a book called Kite Runner from the same author as A Thousand Splendid Suns called Khaled Hosseini, and my tears drenched my pillow. LOL. The reason why i cried is that the storyline is so tragic, and the author actually didn't wrote the perfect ending for me. :(
As i am writing this post, some of my friends are now taking a train ride to Harbour Front to watch a movie -.- NVM... next time, i will plan my own outing that doesn't cost so much money. :) I think i am actually planning an "outing" at the LIBRARY (LMAO). I think i want to go there to play PSP, read book, and also to do my holiday assignments :) Sounds FUN right? -.-
Ok... this morning, i woke at 10am -.- and then went to eat breakfast and go to my condo playground to train my pull-ups. Rather ineffective today, as i didn't improve a single bit today -.- Need take time ma. I jumped on to the pull-up bar and hold up there for abt 5 secs. I did this for another 10 times and my palm grew blisters -.- So, my workout 30 min nia. But then when i came back home, i found it hard to raise up my hand and felt tired when i am writing this post right now. (-.-') I think in the afternoon i will do some push ups and do some jumping. Anyone have skipping rope? I heard some people say that do skipping makes you grow taller and u can jumper higher. I want leh. U go see my 'WANTS' la <---------
Ok bye.
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