Sun lighted half of the Earth, but God shone light on everywhere...
I dun wanna succumb to fate, I wanna live my life the way i want. Stop putting obstacles around me anymore, I can't take it. I CANT TAKE IT!
Why must life be so miserable? Why must lives of other people continue with nothing in their mind that bothers them? Why must buildings like IR still constructing when we do not know when the world will end? Why they do not have this kind of mindset? Envy is a sin. Even despair is a sin. What do u want me to do now? Smile when life as a human sux??!! Why can't i be an animal that has a shorter life than humans, so that i will not be living in a miasma of worries, grievances, illnesses and death?
Maybe the holidays caused me to be like this, cuz im so lonely. And hello, this is only the 5th day of the holidays? I now seriously wish that I have my whole holidays packed with exciting and anticipating activities, rather than to stay at home and only to face the computer screen and questions on papers.
Hope someone can heal me from this misery. This is torturous!! Can a cheerful person here tell me what to do? Oh right, this is a personal blog. I voiced out my troubles to almost no one, in fact. Living as a human is considered lucky, but what's the point of being so lucky when our brains are so clever, when we can predict the future, and our brains can develop a feeling called sadness? This sux. God, i wanna be tall, but how long have i been praying to you about this every night?! I noe that some prayers cannot be answered, but just this once? I am hoping for a miracle again, and again, and again already, and this is tiring.
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