GO HOME NOW PLEASE
Dam pissed off. Not really angry, but more of sad. Tears?
But wait, talk about the good things 1st...
Went to their school today. Attended English, Physics, Chemistry, Social Studies. Forgot alr. Got alot of periods cuz we attended their 1st period onwards till 12pm.
My buddy seemed cold to me... But i dun mind. I noe i very bad, but i dun bother to make very good friends. Later at airport cant bear to go or wad worse. I think his feelings is like how i feel when the other buddy came to Ngee Ann.
During English, teacher told me and Yuyun to read a passage. Yuyun read first. Unexpectedly, the teacher want us to translate it to Chinese. Cool. Yuyun and I did ok... I tried to change the sentence structure from English to Chinese, and the teacher say i very 'clever' -.-
I almost slept during Physics and Chemistry, although the Chem teacher is like their 'Ms Tia'. I slept at 1.30 ytd, so very sleepy. Physics they learning about pressure and Chem about charges. One element got different charges, like +1, +4, +5, +7. Very weird.
Went to eat at 12. I have to sit at the girl's van cuz im small enough, and the boys sit in a teacher's car. Im dunno how to express my feelings. Argh. Forget it. Just think about how i feel.
Ate an assumptous meal there. Tried every single dish.
After that, we went to see the other zones of the school. Then we went back to the main one and saw our old buddies. He gave me a present. Everyone then played some boliao games, like some psychological games like that. Also about teamwork and leadership. I got tired of these activities alr. I dun wan to be a leader. Im antisocial, not initiative, and very very shy. I cant be a leader actually. Ok nvm... Leave all the bad things to the back.
So after that went back to hotel. Went 365-24 (their 7-11). Actually supposed to go there to find prepaid card for some people, then in the end dun have. So, the rest bought chewing gum, sausages, and also some egg, in chinese called cha ye dan. I dunno what is it called in english.
Ate dinner. Then back to hotel room. Then, 2 bad things happened. One is concerning life-death that kind of bad, the other is conflict and quarrels that kind of bad.
All not concerning about me. But there's something about these things. I feel really out of place.
I really hope i really can manage all these, and also hope that these trials and tribulations are only temporary. It's been tough enough for me to stay in an unknown place for 2 weeks. And i love my home so much. I have homesick every single second.
Now, it's just everything. Everything im going thru now have something to do with stress, dislikes, sufferings, God-dependent. Nothing is relaxing in this world. The world so competitive. And my heart has the feeling like, i want to be saint, i dun wan anyone to hate me, if i do this, people will think something bad about me, if i dun do this, nothing will happen, it's the best. But in the end, what happen?
I edited some stuff 2 paragraphs ago. Didn't want people to know some things. See, 'if i do this, people will think something bad about me.' So i deleted them. See, my character really sux.
From all these things, i dunno wad advice to give. I cant do anything to solve these problems, so wad advice can i give? Maybe my only advice is, dun folo my character, and do the things u like. Dun care about what other people think of you. That's my biggest flaw. Received insults and i want to do something to make them stop. But i shld just heck care them.
One thing to say to everyone: IM NOT WHAT YOU THINK I AM. EVERYTHING THAT IS NOT PHYSICAL THAT EVERYBODY SAID ABOUT ME, ALL ARE NOT TRUE.
That's all. You'll never walk alone.
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