Back again?!
You're blogging again?! Why are u so irritating Christon?! Stop means stop la. OMG. You are super irritating Christon i swear.
But im not blogging as much as before now. And i hope *crossing fingers* that nobody sees this blog ever again. Maybe its just for myself to write all my feelings inside.
Or maybe, its a Note To God. LOL Charice -.-
Its MY note to God. COoOoOol.
Post-It-Note: I NEED A MIRACLE
Dear God,
I know i have been a bad boy this holidays. Not doing my homework. Having thoughts of giving up studies. Always using the computer. Doing stupid sins that only stupid people do. God, only u know what i've done, rite?
I know You have forgiven me alr. Long before i sinned. But to me, its not enough. How can i ask from you something when i've done so many wrong things?
Im not a really on-fire person in church. I hardly read the bible, honestly. And im that kind of stone-hearted person. I dun get emotional when i worship You. Well, maybe sometimes. I even sometimes take for granted that You have alr forgiven me. So i keep sinning and sinning.
How can i ask for something now? I want to grow. I really want to grow. I do not want to wait until im 18, before i reach puberty. Even sometimes when i look at myself in the mirror, i dun think this is me.
Everyone says im cute, im innocent, pure. But they are all looking at the outside of me.
Im a totally different person, honestly speaking. And this body of mine, doesn't seem to fit my personality, my thoughts, my feelings.
Can i just be myself? Can You change my body for me?
Miracles will come. Miracles do come. But when? To me, now its the best time for miracles.
I've got this kind of feelings, like if You do this for me, i will even be more on-fire for You.
And i hate this. I know that i have to 1st be on-fire for You, then You will do this for me.
I just sort of cant. I cant do it. I dunno why. But im trying a little harder.
You sort of gave me smaller miracles last time, which made me want to improve my relationship with You.
Ok i dunno wad im toking rite now, so im stopping here.
I just hope i can do more things for You, but i cant even let other people to be saved. I cant even preach to ppl. I cant even invite people to come to church.
So who am I to ask from You to do things for me?
Signing off here.
~You'll Never Walk Alone.~
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