WHY?!
It just looks like, im fated not to play soccer in my life.
But i shouldn't be asking myself Why life is so unfair, things like that. But even if i ask myself, i just have to accept it, or prove it wrong.
Im sure God will give me a chance to do something i want. Its not like something anti-Christ or something. And i can also do like 'cultural mandate' that kind of thing.
But why is everything in my life, arranged so that i cant play it?! Why in 2009, everything changed?
Country, family background, family, physique, genes (different from physique). Dun mention school and class la, cuz its something i can change. Regardless of that, why?!
No one can stop me from playing it. No one except God.
Remember last week i played soccer for the 1st time? Is with my bro and his frens.
Over there, i've got no one to talk to. Like sort of lonely la. But i want to play. Since my sec2 frens are no longer playing with me, i dun mind. Just find other opportunities, and now, i've finally found one after 1 whole year.
So, this opportunity came, and its gonna be gone.
Its complicated. Dunno how explain oso.
Just why?!?! Im desperate for an answer. Can i still play freely as i want. Does God dun want me to play soccer? Still, why?
In a dilemma. I still dunno if i can play soccer with my brother's friends tml. I dunno if i still have the courage, if i still have the passion for soccer.
~You'll Never Walk Alone.~
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